I have started a new website for my blog as i always heard that it is so slow to download my blog in blogdrive. Give me some time on your blog links. Still trying to figure out how to use xanga. Complicated for me. ^^"

here is the new link:

http://pierrotme.xanga.com/

i knwo the blog skin might not be me but so far my mood choosed that. ahah~ so yup, might change it in the future. Anything just message me in facebook or phone.

This is my last entry here.

Here is a pic of the flourles chcocate muffins i made. The cake was nice and was not as starchy as normal muffins with flour added. Goona try making another batch soon.

I went to the night safari yesterday. It was fun but it was dark too! so it was quite scary for me. Luckily i had someone to hold on to and "protect" me. haha~ But it was exciting when you manage to spot animals in the dark. Some of the naimals very hard to spot! But he had good eye sight and had been trained to see in the dark so it was worth it! And we get to see pangolian very upclose! so cute! After a long time of walking, we ended our day nicely with ben&jerry's ice cream; cherry gracia and chocolate fudge brownie. yum yum. ^^

I just finished baking my flourless chocolate muffins. Very chcoclatey! The first batch looks a bit burnt at the top but the second batch are fine. *relief* I had a happy day today. Since i can't find the word happy in my normal life routine. I am gonna find happy within it. ^^ Like taking a walk home after work, i feel happy. Drinking coffee. i feel happy and today bake cake. It was my first attempt at the flourless cake. Gald that it turns out well. Will take pictures soon and post it. And no~ i didn't have food poisoning-> For the eys of Shu Ying. ^^ 3 more months to my attachment then i can have some time to my own. Lookign forward to it. I love my job but i miss having time for myself. So many things happen and i need to really breath again...

ok~ gonna take care of the muffins now. They should be cool by now. Oh ya~ another thing, I actually use rubber moulds for my muffins and it is very good to use!! Cheaper than stainless steel and better shape than paper. I love them. So nice colours too~ haha~

be back with photos~

Today i actually get to get off work early. I went home in braod dayligh~ blue skies with cotton candy puff in the sky. Birds chirping and you see kids screamign around. haha~ not at night. Happy. Bought a cup of ice blended mocha with no whip cream and walked to the bus stop. Enjoy the taste of coffee with chocolate. Also bought a banana muffin for breakfast the next morning.

Already very weary from all this things lately.. might just grit my teeth and get past it then after that go on a holiday.. away from an urban place..

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------missing..thinking.. all mixed up. But i do know invisible tears filled me up and i am used to this feeling now. A tug at heart, a suffocating heart... a beating heart.. all comes down to a heart in love. Now i am used to this feeling and learning how to forget this feelign yet enjoying the warmth it lingers in me...
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Now i know.. it hurts to give up someone you love. Now i understand why people said you have to brave when you fall in love. Now i understand this. Then everytime you heard talks relating to your love, it is liek old wounds being tear apart till it is new fresh wounds again.. that too.. i understand now and feel it now...

On 31 Jan, i ended my evening nicely in Mykii cafe. I love that little cafe. So nice and relaxing. It sorts of transports you into a solitude and relaxing world of your own. The desserts there taste fabulous too. I am so going there again on my own or maybe with someone.

I thought things might not be that bad anymore...I was WRONG.

Today i was a bit troubled by that JOSE bitch but i decided not to let it bother me since i am going chinese new year visiting. Muz be happy. ^^ I was.. till my red pounch got lost... Most upsetting thing was that the 2 keychains attached to it. One was given by him and the other is i made myself with mum... haiz.. Then suddenly i was REALLY upset. what can i do?? I can only smile and try to forget it... even though i am angry and bu gan xing....

I shoudl reallystart to learn not to have expectations of things and attached feelings to non-living things. Learn not to cherish items.. maybe that will helps. I am really sick of problems now.. if anymore cropped up, i think that person will get it from me real big time. But i surly will tell it to their faces and not stood as low as JOSE of hskp... hopes she falls flat of her phillipines butt and her heels get stuck in her ass.

I am sick of humans' heart. Now i understand why ppl turned to animals and dolls for companionship.Their hearts are not ever-changing...

I hate JOSE of hskp. She is a low life creature. I hate those gosipy supervisors in hskp. I totally dislikes the hamster look alike woman in butler. I hate getting sick and keep coughing non stop. I hate ppl who talks and talks and can't seem to shut their mouths. I am sick of ppl who always talks without thinking. ARGH! I totally hate that JOSE woman. I hope she will fall flat soon on her heels!

Now i feel better. Been bottling up all day..  

My countdown this year was a bit different but it was memorable anyway~ haha~ First time did my countdown outside, mostly i had my countdown sitting down on teh sofa with my mum. ^^" Also this year had someone...

A new year means a new start and when 3rd Jan come, i will be in a new dept, Jia you! Hopefully things wil be nice and people there are nice too.

Have to do operation on 9 Jan, argh... very painful loh.. jia you! haha~ Anyway this new year hopefully will be a nice one and jia you no matter what!!! Dear Diamonds, you all must jia you too and stay strong~!